Author: grieffreak2020

I’m BOTH grateful AND not grateful and I give you permission to do the same. Hello loves, I write to you while delicate snow flakes fall outside my window and it’s bitter cold. Hello February in Colorado…I hope you’re warm and well wherever you are. We’re also at that time of year where we focus […]

Welcome newbies!!! Thanks for being here. I try to keep these short (1000 words) so that it’s easier to read. And this year I’d like to add videos and voice recordings-it’s when I capture what’s closest to my heart as I think about you all… New year, same grief… Here we are in 2021…A new calendar […]

How to Find Joy in the Middle of the Rubble Happy December 2020! Here we are at the end of this long year and at what’s supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year. Isn’t that what that song says? I usually make up different lyrics to that one, like…it’s the most horrible […]

Well, here we-entering the holidays as well as our 9th month of the pandemic in the USA. I wish you a Happy Thanksgiving or at least an easy one. And if you’ve recently lost a loved one or are dealing with a recent transition, I send you more love and more ease. Times are hard. […]

  “No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.” This is what CS Lewis wrote in his iconic book called A Grief Observed. He wrote it after his beloved wife died. This quote keeps coming to me as we get closer and closer to the election. I’m so aware of both my personal […]

The rock spiral that I created near my house keeps getting messed up. Someone keeps fucking with it, and essentially fucking with me. And that’s the way life is right now so it’s actually ironically perfect. The world is so fucked up in many ways…and I simply keep putting the circle back together, not in […]

Well, actually, the world needs so much right now. And if I could I’d simply hold the world and begin to stitch it back together. Maybe being woo-woo is one way to begin this massive healing that is needed. Right now there is no normal anymore. Our reality seems like a sci-fi movie, and the […]

How stubborn hope helped me survive my partner’s tragic accident and how it could help you deal with 2020… It’s July. How’re you doing? I’m having a hard time…we’re still dealing with this pandemic while dismantling racism and white supremacy, and struggling with an economic crisis, plus it’s July and hot and all the swimming […]

I broke open yesterday with a tree. I learned that the construction project in our neighborhood will begin in 2 weeks. That’s the day that this long standing tree will die to create a road. Hearing this news was the final thing I could hold, so I broke down and cried. I cried with the […]